Inspired By Faith: All Saints’ Day

As I entered the church today, I searched for my oldest son. My beautiful Breck. I promised I would come to his school mass today and sit with him. I feel that I have let my family down lately. Business has been difficult, busy and even painful lately. I have not been there for my children as much as I would like. How ironic that in the quest to help others connect with their families, my family sometimes gets my leftovers.

I sat in the pew to await my son’s arrival. I close my eyes for a moment, trying to shake off the stressful conversations and strategy sessions I have just had. I am consumed by fear. Fear that I am letting my children down. Fear that I am making bad business decisions. Fear that I am taking to many risks. Fear that I may not be doing the right thing.

My eyes are still closed and the music begins to play. It is a familiar song. I begin to smile. The soloist sings, “Do not be afraid I am with you.” A huge release. I can feel my body getting lighter as the tears flow down my cheeks. The message is clear. Release the pain, the stress, but most of all the fear to Him. Find my moral compass. If I live my life following His lead, if I act always from a place of good intention, I need not be afraid. I only need to trust. Just then a tiny hand takes mine. I look over to see Breck, cuddling in next to me. His shining eyes, so happy that mommy is there for him. The soloist finishes her song, “I love you and you are Mine.” In one moment, life makes sense. I am inspired by faith.